I know I'm much at fault too.

There was an mis-interpretation. I know Shaun was really upset over the text I sent him when I was in Vietnam, not appreciating what he has gone through pains to do.

So I should blame myself for doing that and caused what is happening now? No. I know it's a different thing all together.

I'm dropping the pieces slowly so I'll be ready to give up when the truth gets coming. It sounds as if I have no faith in him or our r/s. The opposite party is being wishy-washy, it won't do me good clinging on. Because, it takes two to make things work.

He needs such a long time to make a decision about our relationship which I thought was strong to overcome anything. Shaun's cowardice and procrastination is hurting me.

And if this was the pain he wanted me go through, Congratulations to him.
But, I don't want him to have the last laugh.